Peace of Life

i need a major hardcore venting session...but no one will be able to really understand the full issue here..there is so much..and i've already pretty much seen one person who does not have the capacity to understand..so thank you for not trying to care...saved me tears and typing...you're kind of a crappy friend sometimes...oh well

i'm going to just let it out here...so that way i can just get it out

so of course i didnt get off of work until 5 on Wednesday.."early" thanks customers for not reading your email about shipping for the holiday-seriously.COOL! anyway, that drive wasn't bad, made it home in pretty good time..hung out...wasn't feeling well, i think the 5 hour energy made me really sick...thursday, we went to see harry potter...

thanks to divorce, we had 2 thanksgivings..at the same time...what sucks is that part of my family is very me me me...so even though it wasn't our year to be with that side, i constantly got texts and bbms from people over there asking when i was going to be done and when i was coming over...now okay there is a little issue with part of the family that i was with-3 people, but one wasn't there and the other 2 were behaving themselves..it was nice to see and catch up with my other cousins-some weird stuff went down a few years ago, but everything is cool now and i really did have a good time hanging out with them, so we ended up staying there longer than we thought...even though it actually was well within the time that i told the other part of my family that i'd be there..what bugged me is that one of my aunts on the other side asked me WHY i had to go to that thanksgiving...like..it's my MOM...why NOT...

THIS IS WHAT STRESSED ME OUT THE MOST ABOUT THIS WEEKEND...THE TWO HALVES OF MY FAMILY HATE EACH OTHER AND SAY SHIT LIKE THAT..THAT'S WHY I'VE BEEN NAUSEOUS OVER THIS BAT MITZVAH FOR MONTHS...

then there's my dumbfuck sister

anyway-friday was primping day-lauren let me do her make up and she got her hair done super cute for services; we took all the family pictures..which beacuse of the rift int he family was awkward, but things went as smoothly as possible...my bubbie did end up coming for the pictures so she stayed for the servies, but she also went to the dinner..i was very surprised but really happy that she did.

so this dinner was for family and out of town guests-very intimate dinner...this is where downhill started...cameron said something about a muzzle for hayley...i laughed and she slapped me (i had a red mark on my arm for the rest of the night) then i got up to say a sincere speech to lauren in honor of her birthday and bat mitzvah, etc...lauren and i have a special relationship and i wanted to say something nice and have it be nice...and hayley c0uld not shut up..and kept interjecting during my toast which really pissed me off...so i bbm'd a friend about it and hayley leaned over and started reading my bbms and then just went off on me about how i am a rude, selfish, delusional person with a messed up sense of reality who only thinks about herself...just started yelling at me in front of our whole cousin table..so i got up, took my stuff and moved to lauren's table and switched seats with my stepbrother for the rest of the night

so then at the end of that I GET LECTURED FOR IT...and okay-i know it seems like this is just my isde--that is actually what happened, i did not do ANYTHING..she has no self control and ruined everything...and so i didnt talk to her all saturday...and still got lectured all day saturday abotu hwat happened

she needs to understand that now that she isnt fat anymore, this attitude isnt going to fly-when she was younger and overweight, i used to get in trouble for everything because they thought that her anger was what would make her eat..well now she can grow the fuck up and stop acting like she can get away with everything..she may have lost 80 pounds but she's still a bombastic disgusting bitch and its only going to get more apparent if she doesn't learn to grow up and act like a person.

pretty much. she ruined the weekend..seriously i was angry the whole time and wherever she was, i was not aLLOWED to be there...like my parents basically told us not to be in the same place...so of course she decided to sit herself with my dad's part of the family aka our cousins sooo yeah i got to spend all of zero time with them..but that's cool because she wants to be popular and awesome...please try a little harder you dumb bitch..too bad prett much everyone talks shit about you because you lie, have awful hygiene and are fucking annoying..and i usually stand up for you, but not after you treat me like shit all the time