Peace of Life

i have a really big people pleasing problem..well friend pleasing...when some people are asked to name their best friend/friends, they can narrow down to 3 or 4 people easily. I for some reason cannot do that....i feel bad to leave anyone out whose had a positive impact on me, or who may be reading it...i guess because i'm used to being left off of things, i dont want other people to..and its not like i'm putting people on that list just to do it; i do feel that for a lot of my friends, which makes me look like a tool bag...anyway, now i'm just waiting to see myself left off of someone's list who means a lot to me...and either i'll will it to happen, or it was going to happen anyway...