Peace of Life

i am feeling so worthless and unappreciated...i really need to say something, but honestly its not worth it-if people aren't going to realize certain common courtesies...i really dont care right now...ive been in higher spirits lately, but right now i'm feeling very low...i'm glad for the love and appreciation that i do get, but the definition of a friend seems to be a little lost lately

i'm having money issues again which is frustrating me so much..i just talked to my mom for an hour-it started as a crying panic attack and then thank goodness, i was able to calm down...i just need to really be more conscious about what i am spending...she thinks i need to talk to dad again but iknow he's not going to offer to pay for more than what he is now

if i were smart, i'd have moved into a much lower rent apartment, not leased a brand new car, and lived like someone in my earning bracket instead of someone in the bracket that i was born into. but i didn't, and now i have to suffer for that..i really wish i could get a second job, but i'm already in a full time job that drives me crazy...